Dead Lady Bug! (Taken with instagram)
Dexter is back September 30th!
New York City skyline. (Taken with instagram)
Taken with instagram
Taken with instagram
Wouldn’t mind some stuff in my “Ask” box. :)
Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours,
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step you took was the worst.
Since then you’ve walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But we’ll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we’d be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you’d never let it go?
Remember, cause that’s all you can do.
We’ll never make another memory,
We’ll never make another memory.
I wish I’d have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn’t have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real,
You said they were,
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don’t share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I’m sorry that it wasn’t enough.
So, we’ll go our own ways,
And hopefully you’ll remember the things I’ve told you,
Hopefully you’ll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I’ve learned from it.
But aren’t you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don’t consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn’t end this way,
Cause I’m still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Pregaming for Loop! Whatttt uppppp (Taken with instagram)
So, for a little over a month now, I’ve been talking to this girl. We were basically dating without the title (her words, not mine. Text from her: “Baby I’m yours, just without the title =* <3”). We did all kinds of cute stuff, and really just had so much fun together. I’m not going to lie, I fell in love with her. I loved everything she did, and everything she was. I cared about her more than I cared about myself. In the beginning, she warned me that she wasn’t ready for a relationship, and I accepted that. But things have been so good. I felt genuinely happy for the first time in a long time. Yesterday was one of the best days we’ve had together. It felt like we jumped 10,000 levels ahead, and I could only see us moving forward from there. Until this morning, I woke up to this text:
“Hey, I’ve been sitting here thinking about being in a relationship and stuff. I’m honestly scared, like I’m scared of commitment and actually being in a relationship. I’m not ready and I honestly dont think I’ll be ready for a while. I wish you met me a long time ago. I was so different back then. I was so open back then and I wanted a relationship. But now I feel like I’m just too hurt and I’m not okay. I dont want to lead you anymore than I already have, and I really can’t stand the idea of hurting you. I’m not trying to be an asshole or anything, I hope you at least understand that. I really enjoy hanging out with you, spending time with you and talking to you. But then at the end of the day when I go home I end up getting upset and I feel empty and broken. I realized that I’m not okay and I have so much healing to do. My heart is still not whole. And to be honest my depression isnt really getting any better either. I dont want to stick you in the middle of this and hurt you even more Kyle.”
Translation: “I don’t want to lead you on and hurt you, so I’ll just end things now and leave you with a broken heart.”
I wish I didn’t wake up today.
